Embracing the Darkness

Yesterday I gave a talk at a Mental Health Awareness event about my own mental wellness journey. I started by telling my audience, many of whom were business colleagues, that I would be talking about the thing I don't talk about. My darkness.…

The First Step

I have been thinking a lot about this recently. How hard the first step is for those around me to take. Is it because, like Martin Luther King predicted, we want to see the whole staircase? I take a lot of first steps. I seem to be good at…

Living!

I wrote on this blog previously about music and the effect it has on my mood. And how I have started a 'three sad song' rule in order to bring myself out of the darkness even though it jars to play a song that doesn't fit with the angst…

Having My Cake

I feel like a turmoil of emotions inside this week and I'm struggling to understand where they are all coming from and how to process them. Some are easier to recognise than others. After three weeks of blissful summer holiday fun, my daughter…

Fallen Angel

I have a recurring dream. It's a nightmare really. I am always in the same house. It is a house I know but unlike any I have ever actually lived in. The house is huge and navigation between rooms is difficult. Staircases have been positioned…

Communication & Understanding

I am about to publish my book. It is called The Superhero I was Born to Be and it is a raw account of my self-development journey with a publisher's polish. It has taken a lot of courage to get to this point. I am frightened what the world…

Living the Rainbow

What a summer it has been! A rollercoaster of highs and lows all useful for learning when I manage to grasp what life is teaching me. Now here we are at the start of September and I am reviewing where I am for 2017. 2016 was the year I took…

The OK Cafe

"You ok?" A stock phrase we often use as a greeting. See also "How's things?" or "What's up?" But in using them as a greeting I believe we risk forgetting what it is we are actually asking. And vice versa, when asked, we may lose the…

The Purpose of Anxiety

Yesterday was a difficult day for me. I learnt that I cannot save my daughter from anxiety. And when anxiety has crippled you throughout your life that is a very hard lesson to learn. She told me on the walk to school she had a pain like…

More Than Words

I'm an English Literature graduate. I'm soon to be a published author. I am a woman who loves words. But I have been on a journey of re-education recently. It began probably a year ago when I came to the realisation that it was not the words…